Stillness.

4 Oct

Sometimes you just need to be quiet. Take your hands off situations and watch God move in his MIGHTY, MAJESTIC, and MARVELOUS WAY.

MIGHTY –  God is strong and mighty in battle. I did not realize how much fighting was going on in the bible. As I continued to study and read, it amazed me how much war was going on numerous occasions. How people were dying daily for their beliefs. How God sent them out to the battlefield. He told them on so many occasions to fight, do not fear and I am with you.

MAJESTIC –  Remember, God is glorious. He does beautiful things that we are able to even imagine. When it happens, recognize it and give him the glory.

MARVELOUS – God is the word defined….extremely good. Let’s change our mindset about his nature. He is not a doom and gloom. Although we do not understand his ways we can come to the realization that the process is always a road to his Glory. Extreme pleasure and good for our benefits and his.

Always remember, God is strategic, dependable and creative. He knew he would send his son Jesus and leave us with the Holy Spirit. During these times of turmoil in the world and whatever issues we may be facing. Just remember…Be still, listen and watch him work.

Unafraid,

Christine K~

 

 

Soul.

13 Sep

How is your soul?

Most believers have an understanding that our souls are defined as our personality, emotions, and beliefs. I’ve heard pastors say “Our soul is the seat of our personalities, our will to do what is right or wrong.”

Personally, 2017, has been a whirlwind. It feels like every day a life changing event has occurred. If my life was a movie, I can see everyone in the theaters sitting on the edge of their seat, clenching their teeth, eating popcorn with their eyes fully engaged scene by scene trying to figure out the outcome. Needing the validation of justice and believing for the happily ever after. Trust and believe I feel the same way, unfortunately, I was not trying to be the lead actress.

So, again – How is your soul? If it is not renewed daily, washed in the word, filled with love, forgiveness, praise, and worship. There’s no way it is healthy.

My vision board for 2017 is basically me walking on water towards Jesus, like Peter. Walking by faith and not being tossed by the distractions of the world. Back in November 2016, I knew exactly what I wanted on my board for 2017. Originally, I did not know what all of that meant – but I definitely understand now.

Trust God, believe and do not doubt – You will be able to do the impossible. Defying gravity and building an unshakable faith in God.

Unafraid,

Christine K~

 

Lean On Me.

14 Dec

Soooo, I wrote this on March 1, 2016 and I just found it today. I just want to thank God for his divine order and protection. Today is/was rough until I found this. This reminder is RIGHT ON TIME!!! I have no idea why it never made it to the blog (and yes I know I haven’t posted in a while – updates on life will be posted later) but I guess today is the day.

Lean On Me.

My conversation with God this morning was more of plea. As I’ve stated in my previous post. My mantra for this year is I will enjoy all the blessings God has given me.

I didn’t reflect on 2015 on the blog because I feel like it didn’t stop. This journey is still continuing from my expectations from last year. God has given me everything I asked for and beyond. I don’t want to sound boastful or anything but I really think it is because I am learning to align my desires with his. 2015 was a fight and a blessing all wrapped up into one huge experience.

As i look back I can see the why, how’s and what I need to do now.

But when tell you that when God gives you something. Whatever your something is he will also give you instructions on how to do it. This is the reminder I keep telling myself. Lord, now tell me what and how I’m supposed to do this.

It relieves my stress, anxiety and fear to fail. I can’t fail when  know that I’m leaning on him and not my own understanding. My own standing would not have me sitting in the seat or life that I’m experiencing now.

So, Father yes, I will lean, rest, whatever on you. Because i don’t know any other way.

Unafraid,

Christine K~

Love.

17 May

It can be one of the most hurtful, chaotic, and exuberant feelings in the world. Quite frankly, if I could be honest, if I had a choice I don’t think I would choose love. I do not like feeling out of control. Yes, I am saying you cannot control. I could be wrong but that is where my state of mind is right now as I’m writing.

I do not like the feeling. The action, yes. The feelings…no. I do not want to feel. You that feeling of:

No choice but to hurt.
No choice but to laugh.
No choice but to feel insecure.
No choice but to strive for faithfulness.
No choice but to hope for a lifetime of happiness.

No choice but to feel this total out of body experience. That you weirdly and subconsciously choose.

But why am I choosing this?!?!?!

Why do I chose to love my enemies? When I really want to smack the living daylights out of them.

Let’s reflect for a moment…..Why did we choose to love?

Is it because we were created with the sense and urge to feel belonged. To express love the way God loved us.

To feel a warmth no one can explain but you.

To feel a power to conquer for the sake of loving.

To fight and protect for the one you love.

I don’t know just wondering….why we chose it.

Unafraid,

Christine K.

 

 

Morning Worship

24 Apr

Nothing will stop my praise.

I will look to the hills from which cometh my help.

I will set my face toward the destiny and plan you have set before me.

I will gird my loins with truth.

I walk uprightly with your breastplate of righteousness.

For you are my strength and my redeemer…

Your hands are mightier than any fortitude city, army or plan.

You will strategically grant me with wisdom, peace, knowledge and strength for the battle.

Your joy will fill my heart, knowing you are with me.

My soul finds it’s rest in the Master’s plan.

I am fit for the battle.

 

Unafraid,

Christine K.~

I AM THE NEW GIRL

11 Apr

I forgot what it felt like to be the New Girl. Sure, there’s something a little exciting about being the New Girl. Maybe the New Girl will be wildly accepted and instantly popular. Maybe people will find her mysterious but not threatening. Maybe the New Girl will find a place where she can grow and flourish…Or maybe the New Girl will just be that, another nameless face in the revolving door of the Christian church.

Today it dawned on me that I AM THE NEW GIRL! (insert dramatic pause)  This is a HUGE change. A few years ago I was very comfortable and active in my church. I felt accepted and welcome. I looked forward to Sunday worship and Bible study. I volunteered countless hours in the ministry. I studied at home so that I could be a better servant. I did this without hesitation because I was part of something bigger than me. I was part of a community. Fast forward to today….I am searching for a new community.  

Every Sunday I walk into a church and I don’t know anyone. I’m not a part of the group. I don’t have friends to sit with. I don’t know the pastor’s name, the church mission or the church beliefs. I don’t even know where the bathrooms are. I am the New Girl. Every week Christian community encounter visitors. There are enumerable New Girls I feel like we’re a forgotten group without a spokesman. So today, I’m speaking up. Here’s what I want you to know about the many New Girls that you meet.

1.       I want to belong. I want to be accepted.

2.       It’s not easy walking into a new church. Everyone has well established roles and I have to figure out where I fit in.

3.       I’m self-conscious. I hope that I’m dressed appropriate for your church. If I’m not please don’t point this out to me.

4.       I want someone to smile at me and say hello. It’s super important.

5.       I’ll need some help…I won’t know the words to every song, when to sit, when to stand or where the bathrooms are.

6.       I want to be appreciated but I don’t want to be singled out too much.

7.       I’m not a threat. I’m not here to take your church position. I’m also not the latest Jezebel to infiltrate your church.

8.       I’m nervous.

9.       I want accountability.

10.   I am a Christian. I’m forgiven. I’m secure in my salvation.  

11.   I have been hurt by church. So I might be a little apprehensive.

12.   I’m not into cliques. If you don’t know me that probably means that I don’t know you (just think about that).

13.   I love God.

14.   I want to learn and I want to grow spiritually.

15.   I might not come back. Don’t take it personal. Your church is awesome but it’s just not the place for me.

Unapologetically,

Arizona R. AKA The New Girl 

Birthday Behavior

27 Feb

So, yesterday was my birthday. It was a pretty awesome week. Really the month of February has been amazing.

Usually, I like to spend my day alone. My friends and family always get on me about it but over the years they have just become accustomed to my behavior. I just love the idea that this is the day God decided to bring me into the world and I don’t usually want to share it with anyone else.

I always wonder what was he thinking…why this day…why in cold…why my parents? Even though, I don’t really care about knowing the answers. I still like the idea of wondering about his thoughts for me. As we always say, God is so strategic.

This year, I’ve celebrated in small increments but I’ve had a blast. Every year, people always give me gifts, cards, hugs, phone calls and texts. However, this year it just seemed very different. I really don’t know why. It could be due to me opening up a little more, allowing others to experience and share in my joy. Who knows….

My motto for this year has been: “I’m happy. I’m overjoyed. God has given me so many precious gifts and I will enjoy each of them this year. No worries or stress. Only faith and love.”

Unafraid,

Christine K.

 

 

 

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