Love.

It can be one of the most hurtful, chaotic, and exuberant feelings in the world. Quite frankly, if I could be honest, if I had a choice I don’t think I would choose love. I do not like feeling out of control. Yes, I am saying you cannot control. I could be wrong but that is where my state of mind is right now as I’m writing.

I do not like the feeling. The action, yes. The feelings…no. I do not want to feel. You that feeling of:

No choice but to hurt.
No choice but to laugh.
No choice but to feel insecure.
No choice but to strive for faithfulness.
No choice but to hope for a lifetime of happiness.

No choice but to feel this total out of body experience. That you weirdly and subconsciously choose.

But why am I choosing this?!?!?!

Why do I chose to love my enemies? When I really want to smack the living daylights out of them.

Let’s reflect for a moment…..Why did we choose to love?

Is it because we were created with the sense and urge to feel belonged. To express love the way God loved us.

To feel a warmth no one can explain but you.

To feel a power to conquer for the sake of loving.

To fight and protect for the one you love.

I don’t know just wondering….why we chose it.

Unafraid,

Christine K.

 

 

Author: theunchurchedgirl

Trying to nativate through this Christian journey while still maintaing the indentity God created in me. Staying grounded, humble and true to self. Wanting my life to be the only example to lead others to Christ.

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